It’s like there is always darkness around me, but I try my hardest to make light to keep it away. Somedays my light grows weak and the darkness grows stronger and suddenly, swallows me whole. That’s what my depression is like.
When people reblog your stuff, but you gain no followers
yah. I’m talking bout you. I see you.
Every cut takes away the pain that you left
But how many does it take to bleed you away
How much more room do my arms have left
To harbor these cuts that keep pain at bay
When will you notice my empty eyes
As myself falls away the deeper I go
When will you notice my soulless eyes
After I’ve nicked the vein below
You think I’m getting better
It appears I am growing stronger
You think I will be so much better
But the truth is I am myself no longer
I scar my clear skin just for you
How special you must be
I feel the pain to get rid of you
But what if in return it also gets rid of me
I didn’t want to watch you slip away
So a new pain had to fill my mind
I couldn’t watch you slip away
So I had to make myself blind
I do this all for you
I go ahead and break my skin
But maybe its because of you…
I destroy myself within
How could I be so weak
To let you alone make me whole
How could I be so weak…
To let you destroy my soul
I don’t want to lose weight because I hate myself. I want to lose weight because others hate me.
how do I destroy that part.
This morning my mother was telling me that I will never be good enough because I was born with the negative gene, I tell myslef that I will never be good enough. (I’m not saying that this negative gene is real, for all you smart butts out there.) But no its true, I am very negative and I am determined to bring everyone down with me, even when I’m unaware of it.
I found all of those old notes… those ones where you told me you loved me. Those ones where you said you would protect me. Those ones where you promised you would never leave me…
It’s over, done. I don’t want him, I’m not quite fond of him at the moment accualy. So why do I shake, why do my eyes burn with tears when I see him… One day I’ll heal, but I will never forgive him for this time wasted with a broken heart.